Tag: mothers

Understanding The Borderline Mother, Part I

I continually try to get away from the topic of borderline personality disorder on this blog, but I find that art is imitating life.  I can’t get away from it in my life either.  Why fight it? I’m going to try to make it…

The Witch and Her Flying Monkey

I received a phone call this evening from my mother’s oldest friend, Deanna.  They have known each other since they were toddlers.  I really enjoy Deanna and her entire family, but this woman has never called me.  It’s her mother, Anna, who has always…

It Is Finished

It’s done.  After weeks of deliberation, writing, re-writing, editing, praying, procrastinating, and, yes, even fasting, I have sent my mother my final words and the book Borderline Personality Disorder Demystified. My original letter to her was thirteen pages long.  Yeah, that’s too long.  I,…

Birds of A Feather…

I find life to be strangely comforting in its consistency sometimes.  No matter how frustrated I am by own inner turmoil, life goes on.  It doesn’t wait for me to figure anything out.  I still have to get up tomorrow and put one foot…

You Shall Not Pass

Where do I begin? At the beginning? I can’t even find the beginning.  The beginning of this day? It was snowing.  We finally got a bit of snow.  It started to feel seasonal.  Christmas is approaching.  My girls were frolicking in the flurries.  We…

The Cost

My mother was adopted when she was about 6 months-old.  The story goes like this: My grandparents were walking through the orphanage when they came upon my mother.  She was sitting in a crib.  She looked up at my grandfather with big, blue eyes,…

Borderlines, Sociopaths, PTSD, and Peace

It’s been one helluva week so I’m just going to “let go” for a moment.  I figure I can do that since it’s my blog after all. I wish my mother would disappear over the event horizon of a black hole, hence, permanent deletion…