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My Borderline mother: two years later

My relationship with my mother is complicated. It feels like a living thing quite separate from me. A complex, dangerous, unpredictable, delicate and yet tenacious living thing that persists. I’ve written a lot about Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and my mother in this space… Continue Reading “My Borderline mother: two years later”

Epilogue: Five And A Half Years Later

I wrote a post entitled AFFECTIVE DEPRIVATION DISORDER AND ALEXITHYMIA IN MARRIAGE in 2014. I wrote it from a place of profound emotional and psychic pain, but there was also a thread of hope woven into that post because I thought I had found an… Continue Reading “Epilogue: Five And A Half Years Later”

Necessary Unraveling to Transformation

Happy New Year, everyone! As an exercise in developing intention for the new year ahead, I looked back over the past year.  In the spirit of looking back, I browsed at the beginning of this blog and saw that my first post was in… Continue Reading “Necessary Unraveling to Transformation”

Resiliency and Vulnerability

I think I’ve tried to write a blog post six or seven times in six or seven weeks and failed each time.  If you knew my writing process, then you would know that is not me.  I have never had a problem writing anything. … Continue Reading “Resiliency and Vulnerability”

Becoming an Agent of Goodness

I am seldom on Facebook, but, as I was up bright and early this morning, I indulged my urge and took a peek.  This is what I found: My knee-jerk reaction was, “What the fu…”  Was I more shocked by the original “prayer” or… Continue Reading “Becoming an Agent of Goodness”

Annual Rituals

We celebrated Passover last night with the customary Seder–the ceremonial dinner for the first night or first two nights of Passover.  My house is usually the gathering place.  It is a big job.  Traditionally, the preparation that goes into preparing one’s home, kitchen, dishes,… Continue Reading “Annual Rituals”

A Healing Hypothesis

I’m supposed to be doing homework, but it’s cold and snowy.  I am entirely unmotivated to study the alimentary canal. A thought occurred to me when I was stuck in traffic a few days ago.  I’ll start with a question. How many times have… Continue Reading “A Healing Hypothesis”

Pushing Back against Malignant Core Beliefs

I want to talk about negative core beliefs and dissonance–and perhaps a way to challenge them effectively.  Bear with me as I get there.  I have written a lot about my last two years in therapy with a neuroscientist.  I didn’t know initially that… Continue Reading “Pushing Back against Malignant Core Beliefs”

Beware the Sugar Train

A new grocery store opened just a few miles from my house, and, let me tell you, it feels like God designed this store just for me.  It has a huge produce section.  HUGE.  I felt rather like this when I stood in the… Continue Reading “Beware the Sugar Train”

That Which Does Make You Stronger

I had an interesting therapy experience yesterday.  Jack is a very different therapist from my previous therapist.  The gap is growing wider forming a gulf that is coming to represent their differences, and I’m missing my former therapist more and more.  Alas, change is… Continue Reading “That Which Does Make You Stronger”