Tag: trauma recovery

My Borderline mother: two years later

My relationship with my mother is complicated. It feels like a living thing quite separate from me. A complex, dangerous, unpredictable, delicate and yet tenacious living thing that persists. I’ve written a lot about Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and my mother in this space… Continue Reading “My Borderline mother: two years later”

Necessary Unraveling to Transformation

Happy New Year, everyone! As an exercise in developing intention for the new year ahead, I looked back over the past year.  In the spirit of looking back, I browsed at the beginning of this blog and saw that my first post was in… Continue Reading “Necessary Unraveling to Transformation”

First Blog Post from My New Home

Hello all! I know that it’s been a while since I posted anything.  I have a good reason.  I moved to San Francisco in July.  Finally.  The evolution of my life and that of my family has played out on this little blog, and… Continue Reading “First Blog Post from My New Home”

Nine Things I’ve Learned

I used to write a lot about trauma and the nature of it largely because I was in the middle of dealing with it.  For me, I would try to get outside of my own traumas and inspect them as if I were looking… Continue Reading “Nine Things I’ve Learned”

Generalized Anxiety vs. PTSD Anxiety

I have devoted a lot of space on this blog to writing about PTSD, C+PTSD, and healing from trauma.  I’ve been honest about my own journey towards wholeness.  What I share here is an attempt to elucidate the emotional experience behind C+PTSD in specific… Continue Reading “Generalized Anxiety vs. PTSD Anxiety”

Healing Past Trauma in The Present

I have been trying to find an appropriate way to write about a particular “emotional” experience that I have endured for years.  I wouldn’t blog about this were it not for the fact that most survivors of trauma seem to experience something quite similar. … Continue Reading “Healing Past Trauma in The Present”

Making Changes on Purpose

I saw Jack, my still-feeling-new therapist, on Tuesday, and we had an almost adversarial session.  It didn’t feel therapeutic to me.  I felt as if I were there to challenge his ideas and assumptions of what survivors of trauma look like.  He consistently says,… Continue Reading “Making Changes on Purpose”

The FNG Asks about Sex

I’ll be honest.  I miss my old Therapist.  Jack the FNG (“friendly” New Guy) is so different.  He’s a much younger PhD.  He feels like a grad student.  Yeah.  That young.  He’s growing a beard now.  He’s really tall.  Fit.  And very subdued.  In… Continue Reading “The FNG Asks about Sex”

Therapy in Pictures

Two weeks ago, I said goodbye to my therapist of two and half years.  I didn’t know he was leaving until three weeks before his final week.  He just dropped it on me during session: “So, I will be leaving.  I will no longer… Continue Reading “Therapy in Pictures”