Category: Borderline Personality Disorder

Understanding The Borderline Mother, Part II: The All-Good Child

I finally decided to stop fooling around and powered through Christine Lawson’s book Understanding The Borderline Mother.  I have some odd ability to quickly absorb books like this.  I read 200 pages in three hours.  I feel raw after reading it, and the only… Continue Reading “Understanding The Borderline Mother, Part II: The All-Good Child”

Safe People

After my last post, I wanted to pause and discuss the idea of a safe person and what that means using Drs. Cloud and Townsend’s book Safe People.  On their website, Cloud and Townsend ask the question: What are safe people? This is a… Continue Reading “Safe People”

Understanding The Borderline Mother, Part I

I continually try to get away from the topic of borderline personality disorder on this blog, but I find that art is imitating life.  I can’t get away from it in my life either.  Why fight it? I’m going to try to make it… Continue Reading “Understanding The Borderline Mother, Part I”

Gaslighting and Distortion Campaigns

I want to talk about a specific topic–gaslighting.  What is gaslighting? Gaslighting is a form of emotional abuse and/or psychological manipulation and intimidation wherein a person, the abuser, presents some kind of false information to the victim in an effort to manipulate perceptions and… Continue Reading “Gaslighting and Distortion Campaigns”

A Conclusion

I’ve discussed myriad topics on this blog ranging from community, body image issues, forgiveness, faith, PTSD, and recovery.  I’ve also discussed something called ‘differentiation’ although I haven’t called it that.  Essentially, the work I’ve been doing to extract myself from the toxic and abusive… Continue Reading “A Conclusion”

It Is Finished

It’s done.  After weeks of deliberation, writing, re-writing, editing, praying, procrastinating, and, yes, even fasting, I have sent my mother my final words and the book Borderline Personality Disorder Demystified. My original letter to her was thirteen pages long.  Yeah, that’s too long.  I,… Continue Reading “It Is Finished”

Sadists, Puppy Love, and Our Shimmering Hearts

Is “surreal” an emotion? May I take apart this word–sur réalité or sur réalisme? Taken from the French, it literally means ‘on reality’ or ‘on top of realism’.  The sense is that one is floating above the weightiness of the solid world.  One has… Continue Reading “Sadists, Puppy Love, and Our Shimmering Hearts”

You Shall Not Pass

Where do I begin? At the beginning? I can’t even find the beginning.  The beginning of this day? It was snowing.  We finally got a bit of snow.  It started to feel seasonal.  Christmas is approaching.  My girls were frolicking in the flurries.  We… Continue Reading “You Shall Not Pass”

The Cost

My mother was adopted when she was about 6 months-old.  The story goes like this: My grandparents were walking through the orphanage when they came upon my mother.  She was sitting in a crib.  She looked up at my grandfather with big, blue eyes,… Continue Reading “The Cost”

Borderlines, Sociopaths, PTSD, and Peace

It’s been one helluva week so I’m just going to “let go” for a moment.  I figure I can do that since it’s my blog after all. I wish my mother would disappear over the event horizon of a black hole, hence, permanent deletion… Continue Reading “Borderlines, Sociopaths, PTSD, and Peace”