Tag: PTSD

The Burden of WHY

I feel compelled to write this out, but I want to write it carefully.  I don’t want to trigger anyone.  I don’t often write explicitly about my past sexual abuse largely because I identify less and less with it.  I have aggressively and relentlessly… Continue Reading “The Burden of WHY”

Abandoning the Self

I live in Minnesota.  I overheard someone say once that we work for our seasons.  That’s an oddly funny thing to say, but, if you live here, then you’ll understand the meaning in that sentiment. As a seasonal change approaches, the current weather patterns… Continue Reading “Abandoning the Self”

PTSD and DESNOS

Recovery is something I have talked about on this blog.  A lot.  If we have experienced an iota of abuse or trauma in our lives, then we will have to commit to the process of healing and recovery.  That’s life.  That’s how we clean… Continue Reading “PTSD and DESNOS”

Learning to Deal

In my last post, I talked about learning to make plans for yourself in the context of possessing a sense of a foreshortened future.  This can feel almost impossible if one has poor distress tolerance.  Distress tolerance is very important when it comes to… Continue Reading “Learning to Deal”

Looking Ahead

I don’t know to whom I need to attribute this image.  It’s one of those images that gets passed around Facebook and Pinterest, and everyone LIKES it.  It feels inspirational.  It seems like something one might hear at a political rally or in a… Continue Reading “Looking Ahead”

speak.

I wanted to say something about speaking the truth. I have often found myself in conversations with people discussing personal circumstances that are gridlocked.  Marriages are in turmoil.  People feel unheard, invisible, and helpless.  I’ve been in that situation.  Or, perhaps it’s something familial.… Continue Reading “speak.”

Understanding The Borderline Mother, Part I

I continually try to get away from the topic of borderline personality disorder on this blog, but I find that art is imitating life.  I can’t get away from it in my life either.  Why fight it? I’m going to try to make it… Continue Reading “Understanding The Borderline Mother, Part I”

A Conclusion

I’ve discussed myriad topics on this blog ranging from community, body image issues, forgiveness, faith, PTSD, and recovery.  I’ve also discussed something called ‘differentiation’ although I haven’t called it that.  Essentially, the work I’ve been doing to extract myself from the toxic and abusive… Continue Reading “A Conclusion”

Rebuilding Our Secret Gardens after Annihaltion

I’ve been browsing the blogosphere lately.  There’s some funny shit out there, and I do mean shit.  It’s drivel, but it makes me laugh.  That’s what I’ve been doing for a while now.  Reading shit.  Now that I’ve got an iPad, I have access… Continue Reading “Rebuilding Our Secret Gardens after Annihaltion”

Borderlines, Sociopaths, PTSD, and Peace

It’s been one helluva week so I’m just going to “let go” for a moment.  I figure I can do that since it’s my blog after all. I wish my mother would disappear over the event horizon of a black hole, hence, permanent deletion… Continue Reading “Borderlines, Sociopaths, PTSD, and Peace”